Who can i trust? its gonna be lonely this year. When the night falls, it is silent again. When the day comes, i'm so scared and alone. I dread every single day coming. As i count down to 29, my mind keep changing. Should i do it or not? If i do, will i be happy? Maybe what i thought that i would feel is not what is really going to happen.

Should i just run away from it? Should i delude myself and the other to pull through this whole thing? My tears are dried. I can no longer see what is real anymore. Reality is cruel. Just going to numb myself with whatever i got to survive this.

I love you mum.

* another misty day 7:14 PM