Who can i trust? its gonna be lonely this year. When the night falls, it is silent again. When the day comes, i'm so scared and alone. I dread every single day coming. As i count down to 29, my mind keep changing. Should i do it or not? If i do, will i be happy? Maybe what i thought that i would feel is not what is really going to happen.

Should i just run away from it? Should i delude myself and the other to pull through this whole thing? My tears are dried. I can no longer see what is real anymore. Reality is cruel. Just going to numb myself with whatever i got to survive this.

I love you mum.

* another misty day 7:14 PM

Question:
Create an interesting RJ question to let me know more about you.

Response:
What kind of person would your future husband be?

I personally feel that love is short-termed and my life-long partner MAY not be the one i love but the person i want to spend my life with happily. Just a companion. I see "husband" as someone who will never do things that can hurt me and just someone to be able to accompany me to the end of my life. Its like even if he have someone else outside, i wouldn't be upset because to me, he is just a very very good friend that has a title "husband". As long as he brings the bacon home and takes good care of me and our children, its alright even if theres no love between us.Judging from my parents, my relative, my friend's parent and my friends, i never believe that love can ever be everlasting. Even from my personal experience, i don't think that after 5 year theres still love between each other. I feel that its more of a dependency, something that you have been so used to and don't mind just carrying it on because you don't want to change your life style. Therefore, i would never marry a man who makes me unhappy in any part of my life. Live life to the fullest! I'm sure theres always argument between couples, thats why i choose to marry someone who makes me happy and i will never be upset over other women that my partner may be cheating on.


Its just so sad this is what i actually think. Guess it can't be helped.

* another misty day 6:22 PM

Period pain

If you never suffer from period pain then you’ll be one of the luckiest girls in the world. Unfortunately, for most girls, it’s just a plain fact of life that before and during a period they suffer from a range of related aches and pains.The most common is stomach cramps and whilst they can cause a little discomfort, they shouldn’t really slow you down too much. You may also occasionally experience more intense pain; either sharp stabs that make you double up or a nagging pain that spreads through your belly and lower back. Some girls also get dizziness, nausea, diarrhoea or vomiting around the time of their periods. But don’t worry, help is at hand.There are several things you can do to help control your period pain. If possible, lie down at the first sign of pain and gently rub your stomach as it can help relax the muscles. Also make sure you don’t skip sport as mild exercise and stretching are really effective in combating cramps. As a last resort, you can always try taking a medicine that soothes period pain.

Be nice to girls, they have to suffer 1 week every month of stupid cramps, disgusting blood sight, THE SMELL, troublesome issues to cover. Ok, the troublesome issues are, buying pads, changing them, SOMETIMES IT LEAKS AT NIGHT <-- means we got to clean our bedsheet + pants + panty. WHEN WE SHIT, ITS DISGUSTING OK! My fren tricia says she doesn't shit when she having menses because its too gross to wipe. I agree its gross because its like everlasting. But i will still shit la. If you have a girlfren, be nice by rubbing her tummy for her when she have menses cramp. You may want to rub your hands real fast to generate heat then place both plam on her stomach. She will feel damn good. =)


ALL THIS HAPPEN BECAUSE OF YOU MEN to appear.

* another misty day 3:45 PM

Pretty face, brainless head.
Why do people go all the way out to make life difficult for others? You are hated by many because of what you say. AND YEAH WE ARE LAUGHING AT UR TEST GRADES. You deserve not getting As for being such a bitch.

Oh ya did i mention theres another person who is just the same just that no matter what he/she do, ITS THE SAME. Pity the bitch above for scoring As in class but Cs for test. Worst, this person has got everying Cs. Awww..... You deserve it too. Don't bother studying, the result is still the same.

KARMA =)

* another misty day 2:56 PM

YES I AM FED UP WITH THE INSULTS. THX ALOT FOR TELLING ME HOW GOOD THAT PERSON IS. I HAD ENOUGH. I'M AROUND SO STOP TELLING ME THAT THIS PERSON IS WHATEVER AND WHATEVER. IF THAT PERSON WAS THAT GOOD, NOTHING OF THIS SORT WOULD HAVE HAPPEN. CHECK UR BLOODY EYESIGHT. THERES STAMP ON UR EYES. IF I COULD, I WOULD FLY TO PHILIPPINES AND CURSE THE HELL OUTTA OF THAT PERSON. START APPRECIATING ME OR I WONT BE NICE EVER AGAIN.

why am i doing all this, its because its affecting me. no one sees how hurt i am and i have to act like i dun feel shit abt it. please show some sympathy.

* another misty day 9:49 PM

And the words that seem so hard so say

Come out when you've gone away

Just stay a little while and hear me say

That I want you here tonight

And I need you by my side

For just one more moment

For just one more moment with you

* another misty day 6:12 PM

Courtship - Guy : "PLEASE, let me send you home!"

1 mth - Guy : "I'll send you home after the movie."

6 mths - Guy : "Oh, i'm suppose to send you home."

1 year - Girl : "Aren't you going to send me home?"
Guy : "Huh.......................... ok lor"

1.5 years - Girl : "Send me home leh"
Guy : "Don't want la. can go home urself?"
Girl : *pissed face*
Guy : "Try to be independent can? For today i will send you home"

2 years : - Girl : "can send me home today"
Guy : "go home urself, i very tired. I alraedy say, you must be independent"



* another misty day 12:54 PM

Money
I have thought about what I wanted and there are 2 paths that I have decided.
1) to marry a rich husband, stay home and be a housewife and free time do my own research.
2) be poor and migrate to a place where it is quiet, beside the sea side. Somewhere that has 4 seasons so that I can plant my favorite strawberries. Live life a day at a time with my love. Give birth to 3 kids.

Love
Love is really short termed. But, even when love becomes dependent, I will always stick with him as long as he wants to. Sometimes we can’t even differentiate whether its love anymore. Just delude yourself and carry on. What we want eventually is just a companion, someone to accompany you to the last day of your life.

* another misty day 9:33 AM

It hurts me to know that you're ignoring me the same way i did to you.
If i could, i would turn back time and make it clear to you.
I never intended to be a part of you,
And i don't think it will ever happen.

Having so much different care and concern from others,
Yours doesn't seem to differ.
When another comes along,
I would just have to lose you again.

I hope we would just stay as friends,
Cause your the best i ever had.
I wish you all the best.

* another misty day 9:39 PM

ministry of manpower. Stylo Milo!

* another misty day 8:27 PM

* another misty day 11:04 AM